I had fifty cents in my purse, no money in the bank and no money coming in.  I had been unemployed for seven months.  My husband had left me on July 20, 1993. He said, “He didn’t want to be married.”   I lost my job on October 1, 1993 at the Juvenile Court where I had been employed for over thirteen years.  I felt as though I had lost everything. I went to bed sobbing and somehow drifted off to sleep. The following morning I woke up to a voice in my mind saying, “The Kingdom Of God Is Within You.”   

I stood up and opened the blinds, looking out the window and watching the sunrise.  I wondered.  “What is the Kingdom of God. How can a Kingdom be within me?”

Living in the kingdom of this earth with the values of Earth had left me devastated. “I want to live in your Kingdom, God,” I prayed.  “Show me how.”  

I knew that I could no longer trust in the kingdom of this world or in any human being.  I had built my hope on my job and husband. The rejection and trials left me with an unstable rocky foundation.  Building on God’s Kingdom could keep me from being destroyed, even if martyred.   The winds and rains of this world could beat upon my life, but I would stand because of my faith in God.  When my faith wavered and I was filled with fear, God’s spirit within reminded me that, “The Kingdom of God is within you.”  Faith, courage, hope, wisdom, love and God’s divine direction were within me.  I felt a renewed sense of hope and strength, I knew that I was going to make it because I was not alone, The Kingdom of God is Within Me. 

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